Always in motion, is the future…

Yoda is quite wise. And generally spot on, too.

2017 has been that way for me, that’s for certain. In motion, I mean. 

If I base my feelings on 2017 right now, on my feelings in this moment, on Christmas Eve, 2017, I’m pretty sure that 2017 sucked. But I’m kinda biased with that, because if I turn around, and really look at what I’ve accomplished this year, I shouldn’t be sad at all.

I have no real holiday spirit right now, because I missed a book deadline. Ending the Curse, book 3 in the Charming Fairy Tales has missed its mark by so far, even I’m not sure when it’s going to come together. I had to postpone the pre-order, which I hated doing, but was certain I could have it up within the 30 days. Then I made myself physically sick trying to hit the 30 day postponement date, and realized, nope, it’s not going to happen. I wasn’t about to deliver a horrible story just to get something out there. 

And I feel horrible about this.

I had a plan, after all. A schedule and goal. 

Ending the Curse was to be written over the summer, finished by September at the latest this year, which gave me plenty of time to hit my pre-order. 

It was going to be easy. 

So easy, that when Samhain returned all my books from their closing, I figured since I had most of the covers done, that I’d be able to toss those books back up for sale, with no worries. No deadlines, and everything would be cake.

I even planned all sorts of activities for my kids, so they could have a fun and busy summer, but still have time for the things I wanted to do. 

Me, darn near every day from July-December

Then in July, right in the middle of all my plans, I had an emergency come up with my day job. A completely unexpected, never-in-a-million-years predicted event that caused me to pretty much throw every idea and plan I had to the wind. One of those crazy, hard-to-believe things, even in my wildest writer’s imagination, would have never thought could possibly happen.

This event enlightened me and made me crazy, all in one fell swoop. Enlightenment, because I recognized that nothing is ever certain, and plans truly do need to be as fluid as possible, because anything can, and usually does, happen, to muck them up. Made me crazy, because, while I don’t freak out over change, I do tend to be a bit of a control freak about certain things, and publishing is one of them. (Probably why I like self-publishing. I like having all the control on all the details.)

I learned that sometimes, I have to say no.

I have to cancel things, or adjust things, in order to keep myself from going crazy. And yes, I’m going to have an “ugly Barbie day” on occasion. More often than not, I will, anyway. And it doesn’t look like it’s going to settle down anytime soon, either. 

This is my new normal. I bought a fancy new planner to help me track my new normal, so I didn’t lose my mind. 

I learned that I sometimes have to lean on my family and friends for help, and that I can’t do everything on my own. Though God knows I try to. And I also saw the ugly side of people when their plans have to change, and it made me recognize that I have to stay “in motion” as much as possible, because things can change at the drop of a hat.

I can be just fine, on my way to work, and be hit by a car. That I can slam my hand into the wall, barreling around a corner, and break my fingers. (Yep. Done it.) 

But I have to stop myself, so I don’t get frustrated or mad when plans have to be changed.

Or feel like a failure.

I make myself remember, I wasn’t exactly sleeping away the year. I got a lot done. A lot. All these books were either newly released or re-released (with updating) with the closing of Samhain publishing. I was even surprised by the number of them I put out this year. 

Series: Barrum, KS Books

Book Cover: Mission of Christmas
Mission of Christmas
Book Cover: Fantasy Girl
Fantasy Girl

Series: The Charming Fairy Tales

Book Cover: Slipping Away
Slipping Away

Series: Guys and Godmothers

Book Cover: The Magic Under His Nose
The Magic Under His Nose
Book Cover: Magic Right Before His Eyes
Magic Right Before His Eyes
Book Cover: Magic That's Just His Taste
Magic That's Just His Taste

Series: The Mythical Knights

Book Cover: Dark Within
Dark Within
Book Cover: Darker Cravings
Darker Cravings
Book Cover: Darkest Judgment
Darkest Judgment

Series: The Mythicals of Avalon

Book Cover: Saving Her Destiny
Saving Her Destiny

Series: The Complex

Book Cover: Unclaimed

Will next year be so prolific? Probably not. Though I have 4-5 projects on the radar so far. Mostly all of them will be new. 1 book still needs to be re-released from Samhain too. 

So I shouldn’t be sad about this year, and my lack of accomplishments. I did a lot more than I feel like I did… 


7 thoughts on “Future

  • December 25, 2017 at 3:54 am

    Life Happens. It does, and there’s not a darned thing we can do about it except get through it to the other side. You’ve accomplished so much this year – after all you were here writing this post, think of the alternative to that. Please don’t fret, although easier said than done. It will all get done, people will either understand or they won’t… and life goes on. I’ve had to understand that there is a lot I can control… and even more that is completely out of my hands. I’ve learned to let life happen because it’s better than the alternative, and I don’t beat myself up as much for stuff that I couldn’t have changed in any fashion.

    I hope you get it all done to your satisfaction. I hope that you and yours will have a beautiful, awesome Christmas season. And I wish success for you at all times no matter when “it” gets done. May your 2018… not suck. 🙂

    • December 25, 2017 at 12:04 pm

      Awww, thank you so much Marsha! 🙂 And you’re right, I must learn to remember that I can only do so much, and I should not find fault, when I should be looking at the positive more. What was that line in Pretty Woman, way back in the day? “It’s easier to remember the bad,” something like that, anyway. I will get there, I know it, for I’m too stubborn to quit, lol. It just may not be at the pace I had thought I could do… Live and learn, I guess. Thank you, and may your new year be Merry and Bright 🙂

  • December 25, 2017 at 11:58 am

    I find that every year has it’s good and it’s bad. Life is never what we expect and there is much to learn from when we look back and reflect. Everything we go through will pass and if you look hard enough, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Most times, it’s not the answer you are expecting, but the one that is right for you. Love, live and learn and you’ll find that it will all be worth it at the end of Day. God bless you.

    • December 25, 2017 at 12:11 pm

      You’re absolutely right Danielle. We never get the answer we expect, but only exactly what we need. I don’t remember this sage advice as often as I should, but I know it’s true. When I stop and look back, I can see many times where I’ve gotten exactly what I needed, but maybe not what I wanted, or thought I wanted. Everything does work out. Whether it’s for something small, like an unexpected windfall, that winds up paying for that even more unexpected car repair, or something bigger. There’s a reason for everything. Thank you for the blessing, and God bless you too. May your new year be happy and bright. 🙂

  • December 25, 2017 at 9:59 pm

    You need to believe there’s a rainbow somewhere, on some horizon, in a horizon full of upheavals, storms and betrayal. Believe more in the power of you. And when people “unhappily surprise you” a.k.a. let you down, disappoint or even shatter you; think if there’s any good to be retrieved from the debacle. If not, sigh, shrug and move on to the next, inevitable sunshine space in your life. I enjoy your writing. Thank you. But, never forget you’re more than an author and deadlines are not physical – they will not kill anyone.

    • December 25, 2017 at 10:42 pm

      Thank you, I do need to remember to find my rainbows. Just hearing that you like my writing is a pretty shine on my day, I appreciate you telling me. Some days, I can usually find my light. Some days, it’s harder. But I know it’s out there, because new possibilities come every day. Every moment, even. I have to grab them, and continue forward. Thank you.

  • December 29, 2017 at 12:08 am

    Life happens and moms especially learn to roll with it. And when you have time, we will read the new books that you are satisfied with. Don’t focus on the miss. Congrats on a very successful year! That’s a lot of books!

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